urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:crazy_as_a_goat guitar d00d from am.psych guitar d00d from am.psych 2006-03-05T23:50:57Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:crazy_as_a_goat:43699 2006-03-05T23:50:57Z 2006-03-05T23:50:57Z simian-helpless it's been a damn long time since i updated. sorry about that. i have no internet access anymore.<br />anyway, news, news, news. <br />am. psych is playing a show at club ? on march 11. be there. i told you about it. no excuses. <br />things are good otherwise, my job is still kool as hell. i'm now the "chef de cuisine" at the palm's bistro. i like having a fancy sounding title. hehe. <br />things are good at home, still living with niki and happy as hell about it. <br />i've been quite the hermit lately, probably on account of the weather. sorry. i'll be out soon.<br /><br />i guess that's all.<br /><br /><br />oh, one more thing.<br /><br /><br />what's the deal with______?<br />(fill in the blank) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:crazy_as_a_goat:43439 2005-09-26T21:29:31Z 2005-09-26T21:30:32Z this one's for you...<br /><br />have been a weed in a garden of roses. have been lacking enthusiasm. have been a calous shell. have been wondering where my life went. have been finding it, piece by piece. have been an umbrella with a hole in it. have been waiting for the bus. have been a friend. have been needing one. have been understanding the incatracies of love. have been loving them. have been forgotten. have been forgetting. have been at a loss of words. have been happier now than ever. have been a line in a poem. have been lost. have been a falling star. still am. have been a broken mirror. have been a ray of sunlight, warming the hardwood floor. have been enibriated. have been looking for a reason to step up to the plate. have been thinking of you all day. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:crazy_as_a_goat:43196 2005-08-30T05:19:12Z 2005-08-30T05:19:12Z deftones- 7 words i normally think that sex is a great passtime.<br />getting fucked, however, is not so fun.<br />finding a new place to live is never fun.<br />especially under extreme time restraints. <br />on the other hand, i'm getting out of a lose lose situation. <br />fuck me.<br />while the hole is nice and wide.<br /><br /><br />i'm so glad that i'm not alone. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:crazy_as_a_goat:42904 2005-07-25T20:19:22Z 2005-07-25T20:19:22Z so, this morning, i decided to play megaman 3 using nothing but the mega buster. (and the rush companions, of course.)<br />i was very disappointed to find that it's impossible. i got all the way to the second wily, and the mega buster has no effect on it whatsoever. <br />although, i did beat the game without continuing once.<br />i still feel ripped off. <br /><br /><br /><br /><br />i'm kool. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:crazy_as_a_goat:42531 2005-06-28T18:50:26Z 2005-06-28T18:50:26Z i wouldn't normally tell you this, but i _______. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:crazy_as_a_goat:42311 2005-06-22T18:57:52Z 2005-06-22T18:57:52Z would you piss on me to put me out? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:crazy_as_a_goat:42032 2005-06-17T18:56:48Z 2005-06-17T18:57:43Z "now i'm laughing from the inside out."<br /><br />i used to have this fear. i used to think that if i get close enough to anyone, they would see what i really am and run like hell. this boils down to a self defeatist attitude that, until recently, acted as my secuity blanket. now that i've opened my arms wide, and let you in, i wonder why the hell i ever saw myself in that half shadowed alleyway. this field is much warmer, and the breeze is not as sharp. <br /><br />you speak of issues. but you don't realise that my issues don't lie with you. they sleep on my side of the bed. <br /><br />anyway...<br /><br />with this newer face turned to the sun, i let the rays burn my flesh. refreshed and immersed in this feeling of stability, i smile on the outside for once.<br /><br />here i am.<br /><br />"someone's pouing warm gravy all over me." urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:crazy_as_a_goat:41848 2005-06-15T19:02:21Z 2005-06-15T19:02:21Z Find myself singing the same songs everyday<br />Ones that make me feel good<br />When things behind the smiles ain't okay<br /><br />Around and over and in-between the seas<br />I need to be on top of a mountain<br />Where I can be see everything<br />Cause this paranoia's getting old<br /><br />Now as I open my eyes to start another day<br />I'm in a pile of puke<br />Empty bag of execuses<br />My love for friends and family<br />you know I need them<br /><br />And under a sun that's seen it all before<br />My feet are so cold<br />And I can't believe that I have to bang my head against this wall again<br />But the blows they have just a little more space in-between them<br />Gonna take a breath and try again.<br /><br /> blind melon - walk urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:crazy_as_a_goat:41666 2005-06-14T19:07:22Z 2005-06-14T19:07:22Z so, i've noticed that i don't post anymore. so HERE.<br />...<br />i don't have much to say. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:crazy_as_a_goat:41332 2005-06-09T17:20:29Z 2005-06-09T17:20:29Z as i lay dying- track 10(that's really the song title) this burn has almost healed.<br />my epidermis has cracked and started flaking. <br />pink flesh surrounded by red.<br />this fresh skin untainted by the trials of a day. <br />with open pores, there's nothing to do but show itself to this world. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:crazy_as_a_goat:41080 2005-06-08T19:10:00Z 2005-06-08T19:10:00Z bloc party- it's a burn, i don't have the tracklist it's mornings like this that make all the needles in my world turn to rubber. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:crazy_as_a_goat:40956 2005-06-03T16:49:52Z 2005-06-03T16:49:52Z at the drive in- invalid litter dept. most things can't be taken back. hours have already been ill spent. i wouldn't take them back for the world. <br />without the bitter, the sweet just isn't what it should be. <br />why do i let the past torment me so? enough to even intertwine into my present life. to confuse me, to displace my anger. to turn me against myself.<br /> <br />i am a stone. faceless and cold.<br /><br />(goddammit, stop whining and get up, man.)<br />i'm trying... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:crazy_as_a_goat:40484 2005-06-03T14:58:01Z 2005-06-03T14:59:01Z "i'm no prize for you<br />no trophy too<br />keep passing through<br />i'm not worth a dime <br />i'll drag you down<br />don't waste your time"<br />(please do) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:crazy_as_a_goat:40354 2005-06-03T14:57:22Z 2005-06-03T14:57:22Z i'm no prize for you<br />no trophy too<br />keep passing through<br />i'm not worth a dime <br />i'll drag you urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:crazy_as_a_goat:40043 2005-06-02T20:11:28Z 2005-06-02T20:11:28Z this cloud is in the way<br />red and purple<br />hint of clear<br />opaque as black stained glass<br />yet twice as sharp when shattered<br />you find me here<br />in this pit i've dug<br />not quite six feet<br />but deep enough for now<br />self loathing is no longer my blanket<br />i know myself too well for that<br />so i lie<br />naked and cold<br />but...<br />beauty runs much deeper than skin urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:crazy_as_a_goat:39855 2005-05-23T19:07:14Z 2005-05-23T19:07:14Z j.s.r.f. i was driving in west allis today. i was looking at the sky, and watching this dark grey stratus cloud swallow the crisp, blue and white sky. <br /><br />i was at wendy's watching this homeless couple yell at each other. they were both very frustrated and trying to walk away from each other, but there was nowhere to go. the only home they had was each other.<br /><br />i think your amazing powers of observation are rubbing off on me. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:crazy_as_a_goat:39540 2005-05-19T19:08:36Z 2005-05-19T19:08:36Z fuck the freeway. seriously. almost got killed by a sixteen wheeler today after he lost his WHOLE FUCKING WHEEL!!!<br /><br />in other news, i say this book today, and on the cover, there was this book cover. it said"men are from mars, women won't shut up". i almost pissed myself. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:crazy_as_a_goat:39215 2005-05-18T23:50:09Z 2005-05-18T23:50:09Z jesus, i'm sick. i'm done with this shit. a promise is a promise. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:crazy_as_a_goat:39003 2005-05-18T04:24:05Z 2005-05-18T04:24:05Z "if i threw my guitar out the window, would i start to regret it, or would i smile and watch it slowly fall?"<br /><br />jealousy is a bitch. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:crazy_as_a_goat:38671 2005-05-04T18:04:14Z 2005-05-04T18:04:14Z thrown over it's shoulder. light as a feather.at first.<br />although each step,it's knees bend slightly.<br />after fatigue sets in,<br />hitting the ground like a cinder block,<br />i look up<br />what's wrong<br />where did it go<br />just another day, i guess. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:crazy_as_a_goat:38577 2005-04-26T18:56:59Z 2005-04-26T18:56:59Z happiness is a warm gun- the beatles so, we got a new roommate.he seems pretty kool. he actually came in my room to chill. kinda kool. <br /><br />in other news, isolation is good. helps to put things in order. <br /><br />sorry i didn't come out. <br /><br />that's all. <br /><br />later urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:crazy_as_a_goat:38196 2005-04-22T13:56:16Z 2005-04-22T13:56:16Z nin_ don't you know what you are(?) i hate the bus. so many creepy bastards. best quote i've heard at 8:30... "he's a moron because he IS a moron." what the hell does that mean? people try to be so witty. it's humorous to me.<br /><br />i can't believe this. but it's true. love exists.<br /><br />i'm awake at nine in the morning. mark it on your calendars. amazing. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:crazy_as_a_goat:37917 2005-04-21T16:34:06Z 2005-04-21T16:34:06Z nin- there is only you(?) caramel laced with cyanide<br />sticky sweet and sadistic<br />iron maiden at six hundred degrees<br />cauterizing with every puncture<br />lemon scented paper cut<br />to insure the burn runs deep<br />this is what i am<br />i'm not safe<br /><br /><br />i don't know where i'm going with this. i feel destructive today. i hate being moody. <br /><br /><br />sorry urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:crazy_as_a_goat:37879 2005-04-19T04:54:42Z 2005-04-19T04:54:42Z i've obtained aim without any problems. if you care, the screen name is funwithblood13<br /><br />that's all. thank you. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:crazy_as_a_goat:37619 2005-04-19T02:46:57Z 2005-04-19T02:46:57Z i'm so bored right now that it hurts. i need something to happen here. with no money and no place to go, i feel like i'm on a deserted island without the view. no offense to my roommates, i just need to be somewhere.